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Monday, June 4, 2007

My Lonely Dayz Without You n I'm Sry To Both of You

As usual..i woke up..but todays abit tiny diff..i dreamt of him..as you all know..i missed him..pretty much..ok fine i admit..i miss him tonezzz..happie??=.="..nvm..ok..i dreamt of him..we were having a veli nice date..onli 2 of us..and..i seem veli happy inside hugging his hand while walking..he look pretty happie too..=D..but *poof* my alarm rang..arghhhh...how rude of it..it was a dream tat i nvr wanna wake up...but..i dun think i can hav anymore dreams like tat anymroe..<='(..

i change to my casual cloths..n cycle to cc(cyber cafe) as it was a veli bored day i predict..n after i went cc..is 12 noon..n i havent eat my breakfast..so i cycle to the mamak store..and i order milo ice..n roti canai..and u know wat..they say.."soli ya moi..roti canai dah habis.."..i was like wth!!..is like a roti canai wit no flour..a mamak wit no roti canai??omg..nvm..as i paid for my drink i left 2.70..so i wanted to buy some food home..iwas thinking of..wanton mee..n i went there the guy told me..wanton mee is RM4.00 i was like "noooooooooooo"..well as u see..things are not going as wat i wanted..so i when home wit no food..lucky my mom cook

so i reach home..i rest..n my sis's present package came..my sis open it..n it was a pen wit her name on it..so sweet..i dun hav such luckyness as my sis..=(..so it is nite~~..it is like usual..i watch my 9.00pm show..and then i go admire my my new phone (w810i) bought by my dad 2 days ago..it is hot..n sexy..i love it..=D..but a smiling heart doesnt mean a smiling heart..the onli thing tat will make my heart laugh n smile is "you"..do "you" know?..

i miss "you" alot..everynight..i'm crying coz i miss "you" like crazy..i wan to hav the courage to ask u.."do u miss me?do you think wat am i doing now?do want me back to ur side?" i miss those times tatu told me tat u love me..told me tat u'll love me forever..i wan those time back..i wan to listen to ur voice when u scolded me..i wan to ur hand to hug my waist again..i wan u to love me again..tats all i wanted..i love u without a condition..but..u love wit me a thousand of condition..even those tat i cant fulfill..y cant u giv me another chance to prove tat i'll love u treat u..100 times better then i used to?..y cant u juz be my baby back?..y wont u accept me..or u ar plotting to hurt me like this since the day u say u will take care of me forever?..issit all this a lie??..i entrusted u wit my heart..and u betray me n stab it juz like tat..do u know how much it hurts?..i'm now heartless..i dun wan to bliv any1 but u..i wan to bliv the impossible..to bliv tat u will once again call me ur one and onli love one...will u wait for me..?will u bliv wat i bliv?do it matter to u?i'm will to love u till i die..as long as u love me like u used to..i'm willing to sacrifice everything juz to wait for u to say "i love u" again..i am willing to give up all my fame all my result all my everything to make u say those words again..like i miss u..i love you..i'll never leave me..i say tat i dun like ur bad side..i hate u breaking ur promises..all those are all lies..i love ur everything..and tats from my deep heart..pls...tell me u love me once more..i wanna listen to u saying those words..i wan u to protect me from everything..when i told u last time tat i lost my path...is coz..u are my path..u are my light..but u vanish in the most important time n nvr to be found..i always tot i could hav a second chance..jie yinn always comfort me wit.."xiang qi jia you..dun giv up..if u work harder..he will giv u a 2nd chance"..how i wish those words are true..but..no matter how hard i try..u cannot see it no more..u are immune to watever tat is related to me..

i hope u understand..

as to my best friend..
i'm sry i treated u bad..i'm sry i bully u..i'm sry tat i make u mistaken tat i would insult u becoz of ur weak point...but now..look at me..i'm more pathetic then u were when u know u cant hav him no more..i know u love him alot..is as same as i love him..but there is a thing i really hope u would not do..pls..dun betray me even u hated me now..i'm willing to giv u the best present u ever had..juz i hope tat u will giv me a 2nd chance too..i really miss those time u go out wit me n other frens..where we enjoy so happily..we took picture of so many happie moment we had..but..y does this have to end coz of a lil thing??i nvr intend of comparing ur marks wit mine..i was juz wanting to hav some fun time..but i nvr know u were in a bad mood..i'm so sry i made u angry..made u sad..made u feel insulted n pissed..but..there is too a thing tat i really nid to say..hope u dun mind..i hope u dun becoz of how han u become so moody..and bad temper..u werent like tat last time..i wan the innocent the happy wei jean tat i once knew..the happie gurl which giv me alot of cute n funny times to remember..the gurl tat help me when i'm in need of her..in need of her advice..i hope tat u will love me back as i love u now..='(..i wan to see u smile again..for u is easy to find sum1 better then him..but for me..he is the onli him..no other guys will tell me those 3 words..as u see..there is alot of boys tat like ur cheeky attitude..no guys like me coz of my bad attitude..n uncontrolable whacking skill..i hope u will read wat i wrote la..=D..hope u hav a wonderful holiday..i love u..miss u..this is the words for u wei jean..

for my dearest ex bf..
if u read this blog..i hope tat u will know tat now i'm at my weakest..i hope u will come heal my wound..coz..u're the onli medicine i hav..<=]..i love u..my one n onli baby..

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