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Saturday, April 14, 2007

another lifeless blog..but this time is MY conffesion..

here it goes..

(14/4/2007, Sat)Today..i was having my scout test..n "he" came..he say tat..he came to cheer me for my test..but after a few min..he told me tat he'll be going to mamak store..coz my girlfren jean is there so he told me tat he is bored..n then i juz let him go..when i'm half way through my exam.."he" called n told me tat he is coming back school..he continue..coz his dad is fetching him home..when i heard tat..it was ok..but the really thing is..i actually felt kinda sad coz he hang out wit my fren more then me..its ok for juz today..coz i dun him to be bored..n when he reach school..my scout test ended..n.. i saw jean wit him..then i thought..jean is a veli veli impatient gurl..so she might wanna come school and go dota wit me..but unfortunately..she came coz she wanted to go home..haih..after tat...."he" was still toking to jean..as jean wanted to find sum1..when jean told me she going find tat sum1..i juz nodded..n then..i saw.."him" going wit jean n like thinking i was invisible..i know he n jean quite close..but..he changed..last time he used to stick wit whenever he saw me..but now..is like..there is nth pulling him to me..oh well..i dun think he still loved me as much as he used to..after tat..i reach the school gate..wanting to walk to mamak..i dun think he even thought of saying goodbye to me..n i juz let him go coz..i dun wanna make problems..nvm..after tat..i walk home ALONE..when i reach home..i was hot n sweaty..i wanted to take a bath 1st..but i was too exhausted..so i lie on my sofa n fell asleep..when i woke up..i had a fever..coz i walk n nvr cool down my body then slept..i smsed him..i say "i thnk i'm sick"..he nvr replied me..n after a few long hrs..he called me n say.."u sick ar??"..i ans.."yeah..abit..y?"..he say "i juz read ur msg"..i was like "now onli u know..i smsed 4hrs ago now onli u read??" then i say "y now onli read??i send it to u 4 hrs ago.."..he say " oh..i was sleeping tat time.."..then is like i'm KINDA ok wit it..then i say.."y dun u sms.."..he say " daddie dun let me sms ad.."..haih..nvm..then these whole dam bloody week..when reccess..he always go koperasi quite long..then when few min b4 class start he onli come back..n summore jean nvr come coz she got high fever..all is left was me alone sitting n eat..

conffesion is..all i wan u to be by my side even though tat i'm not happie..i juz wanna be wit u..then i wont feel lonely no more..i hope u'll know wat i'm trying to tell u..

i'm getting lonely n more lonely each day by each day..My life is ending..And it will end as soon as ur love for me is gone..

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